Why I don't do sharing anymore?

shalom everybody. it's been long time I haven't post any entries.. well, busy schedule and have several mental  depression. well, that okay.. :) I'm fine and better. Well its about 5 years I've been not giving any sharing for another brother and sister in Christ. When I was in the high school, I starting to give sharing to another people after my turning point dream. Form 2 which the phase of changing point of my faith.. day after day, i began to realize that God always by my side and True!! Well, continue to opened my eyes, I've began to develop my mature side and cover by my immature side through my behavior, a very childish and cannot be trust from outside while inside screaming for attention and trust. At that time, senior still conducted the gathering or fellowship for the all the Christian's friends. Well, they used to be combine fellowship for all domination of Christian but then its only last for 2 or 3 weeks when the fellowship were banned by the school authority and that don't stop the gathering at all. Well, gathering continue as time passed by. Entering form 3, our batch were taking control over the gathering when someone suddenly because too Holy by human eyes. But it don't last as he choose another path which to cover his guiltiness over the other believer for make an extreme changes on gathering. Later than in the reformation of the gathering, I join with several girl friends to make the things alive. Being part of them, I began to give sharing frequently and by the way I've been giving sharing also in form 2. Enjoy to give sharing, the things I've afraid is mislead them and make the stray from they faith. I been giving sharing from form 3 until my end of life in the high school. I getting to know many people from giving sharing and that what fill over my life in high school. Although, I might be controlled by pride and jealousy at that time. This was my life as Christian in MRSM KK.

after end my high school life, I've enter university, UTP. we been approach by the CSS at the end of the orientation. enter uni make my life fall down to the lowest people which, I've became just ordinary man with no pride and full of humbleness. I've been sacrificing many things to other people. I'm not longer give sharing but still giving my all time sharing about my dream. I'd remember about the lent when I'm sharing about  glass of coffee. I've been lower myself and let everybody wins on any argument. People don't respect me, don't trust and that make me more lower myself. I can no longer trust myself either. I'm alone and lack of attention. Just the time I'd tried to make myself confident by travelling to another campus for PCC but then being back stabbing by own CSS's President at that time. 2012 its was the most suffer years of all time. previous years, I'm happy being elected as PCC representative from UTP from previous excos and president. After the President re-announce the board, I've feel like a light saber strikes from behind. He even does tell me that I'm not longer a PCC representative and act me just I can accept that kind of shock. The previous PCC very shock with that decision. I began to ignore my presence from them. I've being depressed, sad and angry. Well, no one trust me at that time. I've been out of mind, cannot express out my feeling. And God's will, He sent someone who keep me sane till this time. And right now, I can finally walk on my path straight. And still, I'm stop sharing to take care of all people hearts. They are brother and sister in Christ.

I guess this just a surface about what i'm saying.. By the way, thanks for read. :)

p/s God bless you all!!!

I do this from time to time

Greetings... :) have a smile... the November is end.. hmm... well, no need to mention at all.... its been a while i post any entry on this blog.. I'm fine.. :) still on holiday... and Christmas is around the corner and another few day "Advent" is here... :) to be precise this Sunday... well.... :)its the preparations for celebrate the great day... 

to continue.. just wanna update a little bit about previous month and this month...

OCT

hello October, u seems be nice for... nothing great event happening through out this months... just the time for me to finish my driving practice and then take the test to have my driving license... well, i'm pretty sure that I've post something about having my 'L' license 3 years ago... seems... nothing going right...  I'm bit of lost fro what I'm doing... even my studies... I've lost my purpose that time.... as have idea with I doing.... so i do whatever I like but is the same things from time to time... just having small aim... just wanna live in this world as simple man... well.. now I telling stories like "Ted Mosby" in "How I met your mother" well... this month also I starting to watch this series and like the moral of the story.. well.. no lessons was learn though.... hmm... back on track.. I've just share about I've accomplished that things I've should done it 3 years ago.... typical me.. wanna start over anything that doesn't seems right to me....  well that only Mr October can tell u about my day... :)

NOV

meet November... it the month that I've being born to this world.. around 20 years ago, 13rd November 1992... Its friday... well, I'm not giving bad luck to everyone.. but trying to give hope for people fro despair... no celebrating for this years... I've secretly celebrate it with 2 candle on a pieces of paper with my writen "Happy 20th birthday" I've light light up the candle on it... had s my time alone with God.. praying for what His done on me... well, I'm actually run back at home after the ordination of deacon at church.... Well... with teary eyes... I'm prying for everything... and not forget to pray for myself.. well... this month show me to try something new... the license is out... and I freely to go anywhere.... hmm....  ths kind of stupid.. for the first time I drive after get the license... I get into 2 accident... First, I hit a old lady car from behind because I didnt know the brake its not too strong...and the second one is I reverse the car and it hit a stall and sandwich a man between... well... this cause me to be more careful and now I've bit braver and more competent that before... well... Mr November teach me what the hardship of anyone and that to God I'm still alive....

well nothing actually came up into my mind when write this entry... well... more like spontaneously typing... hahaha... before that I've would that to God, beloved, family and friends... I'm pray for them as they always living by the grace of God. I've pray this through Christ, Our Lord. Amen.

GOD BLESS YOUR ALL ETERNALLY...

p/s sirens - angels and airwaves give me inspirations to write and also God Him-self..

here comes the middle year...

Shalom!!!
well, time moving so fast and it's June already... wow, seriously it's June and right now entering the hard time for the year... hmm.... right now entering the second semester of the year.... still studying in UTP.. nothing new over here... just struggling to survive the rest of the year.... >.< 

well, entering this June it's time to reflect ourselves as what we already accomplished through this period of time... well maybe some of it lah... haha... this something I've done through those time..





1. Eat
2. Drink
3. Sleep
4. Wake Up
5. Going for lecture
6. Taking exam -pass satisfied
7. Jalan-jalan
8. Nothing






well, nothing actually special throughout this year... just realize each passing day became bored as you want to end your studies ASAP... screw student life... hmm... right now, try to focus on the present... live in the present to make the better future... haha


talking about life right now... no words can't describe it right now... to be honest, It's hard to move on your life if your life purpose is "blury" ... haha.. at least I'm easily give up on anything in this life... but just a little Procrastinate  along my may... =.= ...never mind about it... right now just need a person that constantly remind me to do what is important... :3 hihi...


another stories, just a simple reflection for everybody...

"Nobody's perfect"

well, just suddenly remind the scene of Kamen Rider Double episode 32 - where Philip accepted his partner, Hidari Shotaro even his cannot match with his new power well they actually needed each other.. 


same goes through this life... they are no perfection among us.. only God is perfect and no other being can beat His perfection... continue to the topic... as example, you will say.. "oh, I've already found the perfect one for me"... well, behind those perfect word will always have some imperfection... well, nobody is perfect... even I not a perfect person.... let hear Pieces from Sum 41.. :3
 

well, that's all I wanna share for today... :3 okay everybody... enjoy my blog... have fun reading

p/s hihihi... :3 just a bunch simple update..

Mother's Day 2012 and End of 2/1

shalom!!!
well, obviously this entry tells about mother's day... nothing much about to say... just a simple reflection for all of us and the meaning of celebrate this day... Let's begin..


"a mother, is a woman that give birth us to this world.. without mother, we will not exist as well the help the father to really keep you exist.. haha... well, about 9 months that mother carry us in her womb... imagine the 9 months of suffer until the day the we born to this world... and the last day of the 9 months was the most painful + happy moment for the mother... well, it's between life and death fighting to make sure us born safely to this world with all her strength. So remember my brother and sister, think about what have you done to your mother after all these years.. even the pain that you gave them today cannot be compare with the  9 months of hard time..."


that all for a very simple reflection i would share for everybody read this entry.. Well, lastly I wish "Happy Mother's Day to all Mother in the world especially my mother" :') God Bless Her Eternally..

coming to the second part of this entry... just wanna Thanks to God as I'm still alive and finally finished my 2nd year, 1st semester in Chemical Engineering (UTP)... another 5 semester left... hopefully survive for the semester...

since today is the final paper for the final exam.. I feel all the 1 semester burden are wipe out as given support by family, especially my mom as she given the spirit before the exam start and also get fully support from her... :) ... well, even far away from here, she still give me the spirit to face the exam.. really thanks to her...


even though I didn't ace this exam... well at least I still got the scholarship from my sponsor to continue my study....

well that's all folks... will post any interesting from time to time...

p/s going back to Sabah tommorow... :D

day 25- what I would find in your bag

hi... let me get this straight... 

what would you find here 

is

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MYSELF REFLECTION

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STORY ABOUT LIFE

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SHARING

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PICTURES?

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MY THOUGHT

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MY ART

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EXPERIENCES

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THAT'S ALL

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MANY MORE COME

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p/s actually my blog is just mainly for sharing..

tumblr

hello everbody... just wanno mention that I've a new account for tumblr... feel free to visit it...

click to go my tumblr page

p/s i'm still noob in this....

day 22- what makes you different from everyone else

what makes me different from others? a very good question be answer and not to answer... haha... just kidding.. maybe this post will reveal some of my true identity and behavior... my also didn't really know me 100%... just be honest... I have many secret in this soul..

Here's the different I found in myself with others.

1. Firstly, I didn't easily influence by other source... As example, many of my friends love K-Pop... but for me, they is no point for me to like K-pop... even they try to influence by letting the K-pop in the surrounding, I'm still be myself and I will like based on my desire... like punk songs... rather than punk song, I would not like it (except church's songs and dusun's songs)... another example is... the newest trend... I didn't actually aware to those things but in my mind, why do we need changes the trend as we can we ourselves.. I think that all for point number 1.
2. Never forget practical job... this kind of boring... but I cannot forget practical thing and the technique will never faded away... and if I always do... I became pro... haha
3. I'm too loyal... I'm referring to relationship... What I mean is.. I'm too loyal to what I interest and want it so badly... for example, I like photograph and music... then, they will be my interest for the rest of my live... and for relationship... I am very loyal... but they is no the one even though I'm too 'Ramah' with the girl.... haha
4. My live mission and vision is different... most of people would like too live with a better jobs/permanent jobs, getting married with they want and get many money for they life... but for me, what I thinks of life is fill it with adventure... what I meant is, I had choose the road not taken by others.. like I now study in University to get know people and discover many more... I like too travel as fulfill my name as 'ventures' inside my name... maybe I be destined to learn the important of life...
5. I can make people smile without making jokes...  I'm happy to know this... some people makes harsh and non-sense jokes to make people laugh and smile... but for me, just by my body movement.. I already makes them smile... but they will burst in laugh when I told a jokes.... just kidding... haha...
6. My body... it's a secret...

ok... that's all I would share for you all... I hope you all are amuse... thanks..

p/s ok, gud night everybody...

day 17- someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

shalom... today challenge are truly give me difficult time for me... actually I have the will be anybody and not specific and I will speak it generally... those are someone who 1 want switch of my life... based on desire.. be sporting... ok

• Rich Man.

I think like this because I also have the desire on money... if I switch my life with rich.. I immediately transfer some of money from myself as Rich Man to my other self that was not me at that time.. that all I want... Then, tomorrow I wake up with plenty of money in Bank.

• Girl

Because I want to learn how girl lives in a day... that's all... and also do something that guys can't do... Just testing...

• Cat

Because Cat are adorable and cute... maybe be a Cat helps me understand more about as Human doesn't understand everything they want are always been force to sleep... :3

that's all I want to share for now.. anyway... thanks for reading...

p/s Happy Merdeka to Malaya.. 16 days more for Sabah to Merdeka...

Malaysia years = My father's age..

100th entry???

hello semua... x saya sedari bahawa ini merupakan entri saya yang ke-100... yeah ... adakah ini pun maw bangga....

sebenarnya... tujuan sy menulis entri ini adalah untuk menunjukkan rasa kepuasan di dalam diri ini... selama 1 tahun lebih sy berblog... kini sdh sampai punck di mana post sy sdh berjumlah 100 semuanya... 

blog sy bermula dengan nama "Hen-shin!!!" kepada "Moment To Share" dan akhirnya dengan membuat perubuhan dengan mengabungkan nama tersebut kepada "Hen-Shin!!!/MoMent To ShaRE.." dan mgkin di masa hadapan akan ditukar lagi..

sorry kerana merapuh dalam post 100 entry nie.. sy cuma terlalu excited menaip dan x taw apa maw cakap.. hihi... agak lama sy x post dalam BM... 

itu ja lah... harap2 entry selepas ini semakin menarik dan berfaedah kepada semua... bye

p/s ok, just s simple update.. Just to make sure I'm still alive and ready to post anything I want. the first one to views this are the 1000th visitor... ;)

story: lie detector

shalom, Just wanna share a story... enjoy


A man buys a lie detector robot that slaps people who lie. he decided to test it at dinner:


Dad: Son where were you today during school hours?
Son: At school (robot slaps son)


...Son: Okay I went to the movies!
Dad: Which one?
Son: Toy Story (robot slaps again!)


Son: Okay I was watching "A Day With A Porn"!.
Dad: What? When I was your age I didn't even know what porn was! (robot slaps dad)
Mom: Hahahahaha! after all he is your son!(robot slaps mom).




p/s this story cause slapping disease spreading

day 12- how you found out about Blogger and why you made one

shalom, just wanna share how did I found blogger and why I made one...

How I found out blogger?

I found out about blogger when I read some magazine in my high school about social networking... from that article, I accidentally found the word blog... and didn't understanding what meaning of the words.. from that article also mention that most blogger using "Blogger" to write anything they... that's how I found out about blogger ad begin to understand the meaning... after a year, I have my own laptop and begin read throughout the net... and finally understand they way of blogger.

Why I made One?

because I wanna share some story and experience everybody as the other blogger may also done the same things... to get more friends and connection... then, to gain more experience in writing... I think, that's all... I'm happy blogging right now... It became part of my life already...

Thanks

p/s I like the way I write... :)

day 09- something you’re proud of in the past few days

shalom, just a simple update for this blog challenge.


according to the challenge, it want me to tell me what do I proud for few past... actually, nothing special that make me proud for past few day. maybe just proud of myself for getting the motivation going class... also, just a little event of CSS last pray-meet and PnW session make me proud became the excos for the years... even though only not higher position but at least I had contribute something for CSS.

that all from me... hope your will enjoy reading this short update... hihi


p/s I don't have the pride for proud of anything...

day 08- short term goals for this month and why

shalom,
this is just a simple goal for this month.

1. watch "Kamen Rider Series.
2. reduce weight
3. improve studies

this is my aim and goal for this month because:

1. I like Kamen Rider especially "Kamen Rider OOO" will end within 2 episode.
2. To make sure my self healthy.
3. Final Exam already near. Targeting for better result.

p/s I have little motivation on myself.

day 07- a picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

halo... Today i will show something that has biggest impact in my life...

obviously, only HE has give biggest impact for me... change me from blank and immature person to conscious and clear of mind and heart through his revelation in one of my dream.

p/s i'm proud to be I am.

day 05- a picture of somewhere you’ve been to

halo, today I will post I've been in my life.. 

this was picture of mine when in Malacca... taken using my camera in front of Christ Church..

p/s that was happy trip... but the end of trip kind of sad one...

day 02- the meaning behind your Blog name

shalom everybody.

today I will proceed with the meaning behind of my blog name.

refer to my blog header, my blog title is Moment to Share..

and the the tilted just like that... no meaning... hehehe...

actually, I choose this titled for my blog because every moment that we go through, had very beautiful meaning inside it... as I appreciate every moment that I gone through..

Like I'm said... appreciate all the moment we had.. those give us good laugh and smile..

p/s my previous blog's name is Hen-Shin

30 days of challenge

well, shalom readers..


While I surfing the net... I found this Pebbles's Blog on the net about her entry about 30 days challenge of blogging. Actually, this is the first time I doing this challenge and hopefully get this challenge with smoothly...


here the challenge:


Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your Blog name
Day 03- A picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Favorite super hero and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about Blogger and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your music Library on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Your favorite song.


ok, that all from me... tomorrow I will start this challenge and hopefully the result is good..


p/s 30 days is too long

a life as a drama

shalom readers..

on this beautiful day, I wanna share some of my thought to everybody. It almost 1 month I didn't update any post except for the Wednesday Without Words part. Kind of busy and procrastinate right now. I became lazier than before. Skip my dinner or lunch. Hmm, very unusual.. any back to the point...

I said that life is a drama because you life keep going on with different season and story. when end some of the story, a new story will eventually replaced the old story. As example, when you watch a drama in the TV, the story will end some days and new story will take over the story. Sorry for repeating the point. hehehe... Am I trolling with you all...? hahaha... Just kidding... About a month I entertain myself with internet Meme like "troll", "forever alone", "lol", "Challenge accepted" and many more...

back again to the topic... you as yourself in the main character of your story of you life... everybody around you only a supporting character and help you to make you story be success. her an example of story of guy that changing in a lifeline... 1st drama was the story of his childhood, next drama would be his teen period, after that, his adult life and finally his life as old man and the drama will end with a dead. Because of this matter, we will find that life is interesting as it many type of story and challenge that we will faces. Even though his a year, you will have different type of dilemma and feelings through the year. Even though I also feel the same ways.

some people commit suicide because they said life had no meaning. but for me, it a bullshit. who said life has no meaning. anybody had watched Stranger Than Fiction??? It is very good movie for me, personally.. because the movie tell that A man story is written by someone and his purposely to die. this movie tells also that story that we created maybe actually no coincidence with another people life and actually it's the people life..

hmmm... just to close my entire for the day.. as we realize that life is a drama that continue to play until the ended of time.. therefore, we must thank for God for giving us a wonderful pattern of life..

p/s finally I update my blog..

If I Had My Own World...

hmm... shalom...

cuma maw update sikit blog nie... takut pula tumbuh kulat di sini... hehehe... berbalik pada topik... hmm... topik pada hari ini... Drum roll please... bass in.... guitar enter..... then.... sing....???? eh? nyanyi?? kenapa maw nyanyi..? saya inda biasa bh kalo drum roll saya... gantung... ok, tgk gambar di sebelah nie....

cantik kan... punya best tu org... free2 dapat pegang bumi... kah illusion saja tu.. (photoshop tu)... hmmm... kamu maw try pegang bumi? saya trick macam mana boleh buat gitu.... malah nampak macam angkat bumi juga.... senang ja bh... ksh terbalik bdan... nah.. ko angkat bumi sdh... kekke... got it? lambat pick up betul.... teringat pula dalam scence "Ultraman 80".

ok.... mukadimah sdh habis.. kini masuk pula kandungan... tajuk pada hari ini "If I had my Own World"... sebenarnya, ini ialah cebisan dari lirik lagu "Secret Crowds" dari Band Angels And Airwaves ... saya x maw komen pasal band nie... just wanna share personal opinion sama orang ramai...

begini... manusia mempunyai kemahuan dan keinginan... macam cerita budak2... semua penjahat maw kuasai dunia... entah apa diorang maw buat kalo berjaya kuasa dunia... selalunya mesti ada superhero yang menghalang dari penjahat menguasai dunia.... hahaha... cuba bayangkan lah kalo penjahat berjaya kuasai dunia... apa yang terjadi? berbagai persoalan timbul seperti...

1. penjahat jadi perdana menteri/presiden/raja? 
2. buat negara baru? 
3. jadi pemimpin sadis ataw baik?

hmm... x boleh fikir pula jadi lepas tu... kenapa juga diorng maw kuasai dunia...

Power? Honor? Pride?

ish3... memang lah manusia... x juga boleh kasih salah bh... we all make mistake... tapi dalam reality kehidupan juga wujud benda nie... sejak dulu2 lagi tu... sedang kan dinosaur pun maw conquer the world? berlaku lah peperangan untuk kuasa dan alasan untuk kedamaian... hmmm... cari kedamaian dengan dengan perang... no. no. no. semua nie salah

hmm... bagi personal view lah untuk nie entry... jikalau lah sy mepunyai dunia sy sendiri... sy mengharapkan dunia yang tanpa sengsara dan penderitaan... semua hidup dalam damai dan bebas daripada perkara yang menyakitkan kita... biar lah betapa kecil ataw besar dunia tu.... yg pntng semua memahami dan mengerti.... itu ja lah... x payah panjang2...


mcm preching pula sy nie... hehehe... itu ja lah untuk kali nie... bye

p/s best lagu Angels And Airwaves... dengar lah.. hehe

father's days

Shalom, just wanna say happy Fathers day to all fathers who live or not... without them, we cannot exist... it was them pay anything for us... they give us education, food, shelter and also everything.... Father always did the best for us... they like a silent lover... even though they just sit smile to you... but he want to tell you thousand feeling to you... thanks you father for eveything...

Also, do not forget the Father above...

p/s God Love us