Entering Jan 13

while entering this new year.. the lots of challenge face to face new chapter of life... every person on the earth  had on story of the own... different path, different family, and different belief... Enter the new year left all the chapter before behind and make a new chapter of life... 

LETS THE JOURNEY START:

To understand the entering of 2013.. lets hear story the from the previous month (December 2012) as important as the continuation the legacy of 2013... My December just an ordinary December as usual year before... nothing special.. spending time alone at home while the other younger siblings and mother went back to my mother's hometown (Kg. Tinompok, Tambunan), my father went to KL for his thyroid therapy at KL hospital and my big bro still in Cheras for his study... left me alone with the cats and dogs... but I'm not afraid at all... because my cats were my best friends at home... after i gone from home... they will search for my presence as they also a creature create by God.. my cats were missing me and solemnly without my presence... even they came back home after I calling they're name... well... i being alone with cat but luckily I've been invited by my high school friends to celebrate Christmas with them... i with open heart accepted they invitation and its was 18/12/12 i  guess at located at One Borneo Hyper mall ball room.. even though no enough food over they... but the Christmas spirit can be feel that time... and later on, I became my friend's driver because they want to back to their hostel earlier (UMS).. first time entering UMS was enough to describe a "SAKAI" guy like my.... and after that I being alone again until I fetch my cousin from KKIA and directly went to Tambunan for 4 day (20-24) because needs to fetch up again my big bro and dad from KKIA also.. they funny things is my cousin should fetch them but at the end I fetch them and made it on time and still have time to eat McDonald... arrived at home... I thought we will be back to Tambunan at that night I fetch them and I left all my belongings for Christmas at they... having some argument with dad and finally me and my cousin back to Tambunan the Christmas Morning... No wonderful Christmas for me.. being alone for almost 20 years at Christmas Eve but only a flying message throughout the world be my friends... later on Tambunan, I've managed to arrived at my mom's hometown and get ready for the Christmas's Mass (Holy Cross Toboh)... luckily me and my cousin bring back my bro car to Tambunan and I use that car get to they church earlier and park beside my other cousin car... what a coincidence... hmm... nothing special happened.. just having Christmas Mass and then back to rest and have to deal with every years "merajuk" birthday girl... to be honest I hate this my youngest sister for always being like that for almost every year in 12 years.. well.. having party and visit the late grand-father and cousin grave... being the tradition for the family to pay visit for them so they will happy in heaven because being remember... the Christmas season is end with the coming of my aunt wedding and it was my last aunt from my mother's siblings getting married... we having preparation for her wedding at "balai raya" and decorate everything that necessary... reach the wedding day.. shit happened... on the way me and cousin going to bought the wine for toast.. the car starting to shows the impact of "shocked" means the car never go far from KK and use to go Tambunan and the car unable to start... its kill some times and causing me not attending the wedding ceremony at Church... but happened another things which helping my uncle to bought many bundle of ices for "beer" only... the wedding  not quiet "meriah" because mostly people came and go home... at least they were food being prepare and eating mostly my job over they but should be the people were distribute the beer to the people coming... end of story... now is the waiting to back to KK but instead directly back to Papar and shit happened again when we already at Putatan and turning on the air-cond causing the car to stop its engine with any warning.... but safely arrived at Papar... (30/12/1).. approach new year.. we having some barbeque out-side the house and in the ending of the years... and thats how its entering the jan 2013...

p/s its just story of lonely guy.

I do this from time to time

Greetings... :) have a smile... the November is end.. hmm... well, no need to mention at all.... its been a while i post any entry on this blog.. I'm fine.. :) still on holiday... and Christmas is around the corner and another few day "Advent" is here... :) to be precise this Sunday... well.... :)its the preparations for celebrate the great day... 

to continue.. just wanna update a little bit about previous month and this month...

OCT

hello October, u seems be nice for... nothing great event happening through out this months... just the time for me to finish my driving practice and then take the test to have my driving license... well, i'm pretty sure that I've post something about having my 'L' license 3 years ago... seems... nothing going right...  I'm bit of lost fro what I'm doing... even my studies... I've lost my purpose that time.... as have idea with I doing.... so i do whatever I like but is the same things from time to time... just having small aim... just wanna live in this world as simple man... well.. now I telling stories like "Ted Mosby" in "How I met your mother" well... this month also I starting to watch this series and like the moral of the story.. well.. no lessons was learn though.... hmm... back on track.. I've just share about I've accomplished that things I've should done it 3 years ago.... typical me.. wanna start over anything that doesn't seems right to me....  well that only Mr October can tell u about my day... :)

NOV

meet November... it the month that I've being born to this world.. around 20 years ago, 13rd November 1992... Its friday... well, I'm not giving bad luck to everyone.. but trying to give hope for people fro despair... no celebrating for this years... I've secretly celebrate it with 2 candle on a pieces of paper with my writen "Happy 20th birthday" I've light light up the candle on it... had s my time alone with God.. praying for what His done on me... well, I'm actually run back at home after the ordination of deacon at church.... Well... with teary eyes... I'm prying for everything... and not forget to pray for myself.. well... this month show me to try something new... the license is out... and I freely to go anywhere.... hmm....  ths kind of stupid.. for the first time I drive after get the license... I get into 2 accident... First, I hit a old lady car from behind because I didnt know the brake its not too strong...and the second one is I reverse the car and it hit a stall and sandwich a man between... well... this cause me to be more careful and now I've bit braver and more competent that before... well... Mr November teach me what the hardship of anyone and that to God I'm still alive....

well nothing actually came up into my mind when write this entry... well... more like spontaneously typing... hahaha... before that I've would that to God, beloved, family and friends... I'm pray for them as they always living by the grace of God. I've pray this through Christ, Our Lord. Amen.

GOD BLESS YOUR ALL ETERNALLY...

p/s sirens - angels and airwaves give me inspirations to write and also God Him-self..

April Lesson

Shalom!!

 

Well, It's been long time since I have update my blog with a proper way... >.< means with some sharing and thoughts from me.. It's about the end of the April and seems this April have taught me somethings through out this month... And.. here come what did I gain from this month..

Life with clear aim and purpose.

To tell the truth, my life before this seems like a person who live in this world without any dream and desire to live. I didn't care about myself and anybody cause the loneliness inside here limiting me from done anything. Which causing me to procrastinate and left my any dream and hope just stop in the middle of the road. And now, I've realize that life just once and irreplaceable. Well, at least right now I having my own clear aim for the future.

Friendship is important.

To be honest, this month really taught me the importance of friendship. And I have tell myself that friendship will help you in this live. When you in trouble, that's when you realize that who is the real and fake.

Love

Hmm... doesn't want to talk to much of this things because I know they were people who more expert on this matter. Or I too naive in this matter. Well, nothing is perfect and mean to be perfect. As for me, love is important to everybody such family, partner, friends and everybody. Well, It's been long time I felt this kind of feeling and it keep you up all the time.

Well, that's all I would share for today. Still have lot things to be learn in this world. And let's us keep praying to God to guide us through our daily live with His Blessings. 

And thanks for everybody who visiting my blog. Feel free to visit again.

p/s life is wonderful

Climax Heroes Fourze!!! (Uchu Kita!!!)

well, this is just about the newest game was release from Bandai Namco Games 1st December ago... before I begin play this game, I already try the previous version of Climax heroes Game... well, basically Climax Heroes is a fighting game between 'Kamen Rider'in 9 different world (Kuuga, Agito, Ryuki, Faiz, Blade, Hibiki, Kabuto, Den-O, Kiva, Decade)... this first game were using PS2 as it console as PS2 still popular on that time... and some additional character which never exist it the show, "Kamen Rider Dark Decade"...

Kamen Rider Climax Heroes

after getting a positive feedback, they continue to develop new version for the climax heroes... the name it "Climax Heroes W" with additional of new character from new show for that Time (Kamen Rider W)... as adding the Kamen Rider name to the game name... but, this time, they release on different console, they release to "Wii" console...

Kamen Rider Climax Heroes W

with the new show (Kamen Rider OOO) on air, they develop third installment of climax heroes and adding OOO to the name... they are major change happened in this game, with adding new character and some of secondary Rider, This Game is release on PSP and Wii... Fan are very happy with this, especially who having a PSP... they can play Climax Heroes anyway and anytime... then, some weakness found this game, which, not all the secondary rider has finishing move... this kind disappoint the fan and actually want to see the finisher of Kamen Rider Cyclone Accel Extreme"... and another special with this version is, all the Heisei Kamen Rider "Final Form (Strongest Form)" are playable...

Kamen Rider Climax Heroes OOO

and, as the current show, "Kamen Rider Fourze" on air, they develop the newest climax heroes (Climax Heroes Fourze)... it is official release 1st December 2011... thanks goodness, this game is fulfilling was is unsatisfied for me in the climax heroes OOO... all the rider in this game have it own finisher... no character inside the game missed from having own finisher.. it so good... then, they were additional of "Showa Rider" Character... not all character were add... only Ichigou, Nigou, V3, Amazon, Black, Black RX and Shadow Moon... a new type of fighting also is introduced which tag team, which player can use two character in time to defeat they opponent, and the finished of tag team mode is, rider kick or rider punch together... 

Kamen Rider Climax Heroes Fourze

well, as a fan of Kamen Rider,I really love this game as it keep changing from time to time... as in the future, this game became icon for the world to recognize 'Kamen Rider' as original Japan made...

thanks for reading...

p/s uchu kita!!!!

wake up the blog.

hmmm... after about two months... not actually two months, but it almost two month... this year are almost came to the end and new year will replace it as well Christmas are yet to come... but those are not the point of this entry (perhaps??)... about any sharing about holiday or vacation...

let's begin...

the moment I post the last entries it a poem inspire by a song titled "Even If She Falls"... well, it's complicated to explain the songs... and I recommended everybody to hear...

well it's a blink 182 songs... and as I mention before... I am very big fan of them...


another stories,

throughout these boring holiday, I don't became what do I planned before... all those things I want to do in this holiday only a talk... The only things I do is sit in my home, pet my cat, take care of the houses and 2 times walking in the city...  well, sometimes we don't plan what to do, instead do and plan...


past dream,

yeah, this is kind of gross when you think about it... sometimes what do we want on the past will be achieved when you don't need anymore... for example, in my case, I always dreaming of having own "Radio Control Car Toy" since was 11... when that time, My father did bought one, but not for me, it for my brother and I have share with him... until one day, it broken... and forget by everybody... then about 3 weeks ago, I bought one and my intention was to make it as a cat toys... wow, at least now I afford but the mood is good.

seven years,

well, my birthday is celebrated after 7 years without celebration.. well, I feel kind of gross to having a birthday celebration, especial on my age right now... What do I thinks about my birthday is happy if only people remember it...

well, time to say good bye... anyway, thanks for those visiting my blog, I am very appreciate all of those...

p/s another simple post/entry..

day 29- In this past month, what have you learned and day 30- Your favorite song.

in the past few weeks.... I'm having no time to update my blog... because many things I did until I don't have the times to complete this challenge.... as to conclude this challenge.... I will share this two challenge in this entry...

here come the challenge.

Day 29...

what would I learned in the past month... this referring to August and September months.. here come something I found in past month....

• Anybody can be friends, but not a best friends.
• Procrastination only make yourself busier.
• Easiest way always come at desperate time.
• Never ever bring extra baggage when fly. Waste of time.
• Enjoy this Life.
• They are no turning back in Life.
• Satisfied with you decision.
• Everybody had annoying inside.
• Love is dangerous (even little crush).
• Hallucinate make yourself miss past moment.
• Have care with mother tongue.
• The World is small.
• Evolution occur anytime.
• No easy way to loss weight.
• And I happy the way I am.

Many things did happen in the past month... sometimes, you did ever know that you have learned something in this life.. to be honest... I happy when with everybody.

that's all...

Day 30...

This is the final challenge and I Hopefully everybody knows this song.. especially for blink 182 fans... are you ready... the songs I like the most on this time is....

"SNAKE CHARMER"

Thanks...

p/s after 3 weeks... I finally had time to conquer this challenge.

day 25- what I would find in your bag

hi... let me get this straight... 

what would you find here 

is

.

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MYSELF REFLECTION

.

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STORY ABOUT LIFE

.

.

SHARING

.

.

PICTURES?

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.

MY THOUGHT

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.

MY ART

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EXPERIENCES

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THAT'S ALL

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MANY MORE COME

.

.

p/s actually my blog is just mainly for sharing..

day 22- what makes you different from everyone else

what makes me different from others? a very good question be answer and not to answer... haha... just kidding.. maybe this post will reveal some of my true identity and behavior... my also didn't really know me 100%... just be honest... I have many secret in this soul..

Here's the different I found in myself with others.

1. Firstly, I didn't easily influence by other source... As example, many of my friends love K-Pop... but for me, they is no point for me to like K-pop... even they try to influence by letting the K-pop in the surrounding, I'm still be myself and I will like based on my desire... like punk songs... rather than punk song, I would not like it (except church's songs and dusun's songs)... another example is... the newest trend... I didn't actually aware to those things but in my mind, why do we need changes the trend as we can we ourselves.. I think that all for point number 1.
2. Never forget practical job... this kind of boring... but I cannot forget practical thing and the technique will never faded away... and if I always do... I became pro... haha
3. I'm too loyal... I'm referring to relationship... What I mean is.. I'm too loyal to what I interest and want it so badly... for example, I like photograph and music... then, they will be my interest for the rest of my live... and for relationship... I am very loyal... but they is no the one even though I'm too 'Ramah' with the girl.... haha
4. My live mission and vision is different... most of people would like too live with a better jobs/permanent jobs, getting married with they want and get many money for they life... but for me, what I thinks of life is fill it with adventure... what I meant is, I had choose the road not taken by others.. like I now study in University to get know people and discover many more... I like too travel as fulfill my name as 'ventures' inside my name... maybe I be destined to learn the important of life...
5. I can make people smile without making jokes...  I'm happy to know this... some people makes harsh and non-sense jokes to make people laugh and smile... but for me, just by my body movement.. I already makes them smile... but they will burst in laugh when I told a jokes.... just kidding... haha...
6. My body... it's a secret...

ok... that's all I would share for you all... I hope you all are amuse... thanks..

p/s ok, gud night everybody...

day 14- a picture of you and your family

This Is picture of Me with my family at the cemetery 3 years ago... It's was Christmas time

p/s I miss my family..

day 11- another picture of you and your friends ( a batch of fighting)

here came the another picture with friends:

I'm look fatter here... as this picture taken last year....

this theme shows that as an batch... we are fighting and sharing the moment for achieve our dream...

p/s those were sabahan friends...

day 10- songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

shalom... firstly, I make some apologies as I unable to complete my challenge yesterday... as I had to extent the 10th challenge to this day....

let's begin...

If I Happy, I will listen to

• Any songs. Became we I'm happy, I will try too hear any songs without knowing what kind of song was.

If I Sad, I will listen to

• Mostly Angels and Airwaves and Box Car Racer songs. (All they Album). Because it very slow and make my heart calm.

If I Bored, I will listen to

• Dusun's Songs. Because the songs will lead me remember the past and the boring will gone instantaneously.

If I Hyped, I will listen to

• blink 182, plus 44 and Box Car Racer songs. (All they Album). Because punk music style give me confidence and make me more hyped.

If I Mad, I will listen o

• Church Songs. Because it can cool down my temper and reduce the stress from me.

p/s I like blink 182 forever and after...

day 07- a picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

halo... Today i will show something that has biggest impact in my life...

obviously, only HE has give biggest impact for me... change me from blank and immature person to conscious and clear of mind and heart through his revelation in one of my dream.

p/s i'm proud to be I am.

day 05- a picture of somewhere you’ve been to

halo, today I will post I've been in my life.. 

this was picture of mine when in Malacca... taken using my camera in front of Christ Church..

p/s that was happy trip... but the end of trip kind of sad one...

day 03- a picture of you and your friends (everybody is friends)

Shalom... today I will show a picture of me and my friends.. 

here it goes:

sit (front) : Moshey, Nell
stand (middle) : Had, Me , Man Lee, Melissa@Bei, Aaron K.,Edgar, Tania, Janet, Anne
stand (behind) : Eric, Aaron S@Ansaw, Josh, Rick, HoHo, Clare


This picture taking at Church of Our Lady of Sorrows, Penang after the Sunday Mass. 


everybody in the world can be my friends, because anybody who ever know me and talk to me is consider as a friend.


p/s I be happy to be anyone friend.

experiences is the best teacher

shalom readers..


for this early in the morning (Malaysian Time), wake up too early and will get through test and presentation on this afternoon.. T_T .. sounds scary to me.. 


Ok, Let me get this straight, experiences is a best teacher because ... (not more than 1000 words).

haha.. just kidding.. anyway, based on my views and experiences myself. almost everything that I learned today for living and alive mostly about 80 % from real experiences. if you geek or nerd with thousand of knowledge doesn't make you in this world as surviving humans... haha... for example, you cannot cook by just watching television or reading books. It not let you automatically can cook within a second. you still need to turn on the gas, find the right temperature of you stove and cook.. honestly, I start cooking when my age 7 years old... it was 1999 at time. I learned how to cook by myself after observing mom was cooking.. my brother at that time was 8 and also learn by himself... he did very good job at that time.. Now he very excellent in cooking in many variety and style... I'm at that very envy with my brother and also want to cook by myself... but the problem at that time is... I'm afraid of turning on the gas. because in the past before 7, I been strike with hot oil while mom was cooking at the kitchen. hence, for about years I cooking with help of anybody to turn on the gas... after a years, I conquered my fear by trying to turn the gas by myself.. then, I started by push and turn anti-clockwise... whoah.. I did it and from that... I am very good in cook but still no match with my brother..


it's very long story for me to explain the experiences was the best in my life... while I'm learning cook... I never read any materials stuff to learn cooking... by only seeing and redone the work done... you have save some energy on reading... haha... 


well.. they many things I wanna share in this entries but nobody likes to reading a very long post.... hehe (trolling for a while).. ok guys... that all from me now... Hope the newer entries are more interesting for you all...


p/s almost 8 monthw I didn't cook because women doesn't trust myself and abilities.

a life as a drama

shalom readers..

on this beautiful day, I wanna share some of my thought to everybody. It almost 1 month I didn't update any post except for the Wednesday Without Words part. Kind of busy and procrastinate right now. I became lazier than before. Skip my dinner or lunch. Hmm, very unusual.. any back to the point...

I said that life is a drama because you life keep going on with different season and story. when end some of the story, a new story will eventually replaced the old story. As example, when you watch a drama in the TV, the story will end some days and new story will take over the story. Sorry for repeating the point. hehehe... Am I trolling with you all...? hahaha... Just kidding... About a month I entertain myself with internet Meme like "troll", "forever alone", "lol", "Challenge accepted" and many more...

back again to the topic... you as yourself in the main character of your story of you life... everybody around you only a supporting character and help you to make you story be success. her an example of story of guy that changing in a lifeline... 1st drama was the story of his childhood, next drama would be his teen period, after that, his adult life and finally his life as old man and the drama will end with a dead. Because of this matter, we will find that life is interesting as it many type of story and challenge that we will faces. Even though his a year, you will have different type of dilemma and feelings through the year. Even though I also feel the same ways.

some people commit suicide because they said life had no meaning. but for me, it a bullshit. who said life has no meaning. anybody had watched Stranger Than Fiction??? It is very good movie for me, personally.. because the movie tell that A man story is written by someone and his purposely to die. this movie tells also that story that we created maybe actually no coincidence with another people life and actually it's the people life..

hmmm... just to close my entire for the day.. as we realize that life is a drama that continue to play until the ended of time.. therefore, we must thank for God for giving us a wonderful pattern of life..

p/s finally I update my blog..

Wednesday Without Words 4

the most stupid decision

this is story of guys who ended up with regretful. sigh..

hmm... this guy already planned to pay his Hostel's fees from whole his money in the bank.. but He only have RM 300 but the fees is RM510.. Then, He ask his parent for RM300 so he can survive 2 weeks until the allowance came... so this guys already received the money and decided to pay the fees for the Friday... but, he doesn't have time to pay because need study for the coming test... study are more important... After the test, he goes to the payment place, but it close... so pity... He already withdraw RM600 from his account and afraid it will finished soon.. then, the afternoon... some friends bought him out for having lunch... he finished around RM5... RM595 left... then... I buy some food at his campus... RM591 left... that night... they go out to Mamak Coffee Shop and spend about RM... now RM580 left... later on Sunday.. He went to the church and having lunch and paid for RM15 (RM 5  is force to treat a friends) now.... RM565 left... later at the afternoon... he have a Moral Student Trip and after the trip he spend over RM24(RM0.50 treat friends)... the money left is RM541... end for the day... finally in the Monday, he manage to pay the fees, RM510... Money Left RM31... later he went for dinner... RM5 and money left RM26.. then he went to his friends and the friends ask for RM10 for the Moral Trip Gift... he pays and left with RM16.... he thinks he can survive with RM 16 until Friday... but, tomorrow, he he go and eat... with usual RM5 dish.... and said... he can stand 2 more days... suddenly, in the way for his next class... he saw KFC booth... he forget everything and bought the food after the class... then... all his money finished... Now he had to starving for the rest of the day until allowances came....

p/s do not spend through your desire...

The Worst day Ever Had

shalom... this is the songs of the corrupted life...

Worst

going out for holiday,

far from the used to be.

spending all of the life.

making things happened

I wake up at almost 11,

and sleep accurately at 7,

around the town whole the days,

forget something needs to do.

bridge

But it always happened.

nothing here to compares it.

about feeling of lossing something

where do you right now.

Chorus

Oh. I see it, I feel it, I touch it.

For the first time and the last.

Cause I never have this feeling,

to have the worst day ever had.

coming back from the past.

everything destroyed in front of me.

counting all the broken pieces.

trying to let it became one.

as the light came over me.

I feel shadows of myself.

cursing me for another week.

hope i could survive it.

bridge

Chorus

interlude

this is the worst day i ever had

this is the shit day i ever had

this is the fuck day i ever had

and I...

final chorus

Oh. I see it, I feel it, I touch it.

For the first time and the last.

Cause I never have this feeling,

to have the worst day ever had.

Oh. cause it always silence.

waiting for the next victim

Let I never know this feeling

to have the worst day ever had.

p/s those are the life

Little Modification.

Shalom..

 Yesterday, when I was blog-walking.... I was amused by certain blog that I visit... Accidentally I visit some blog have the collection of tutorial for designing blog from Guy name Gary.. actually, I not the people that like design the blog... hehehe... but the tutorial it good and some modification Idid from it... Those what things I did for my blog....

 

Only adding this item


Just Simple One....!!!


Wondeful? Just Kidding...


Ok, As you see those Picture... I change the blog icon... The name for the menu (and it;s moving).... Then... I add Border the the titled... so it's look lebih kemas... hehehe... Adding "LIKE" button for Facebook... and Finally, I adding the Blog list with Scroll abilities.... Rather than use "Show All" which making those list became longer... here new hypothesis I made... but it's real.. The Greater the Number of blog in the List, The Greater the Length of Blog List... hehehe...

Any way in the future, maybe my blog became more simple but complex... just wait and see...

p/s first attempt using HTML editor..