2025

2025, Who the fuck are we?

2024

 Remember when we are young;

1. Naive
2. Happy
3. Ego
4. Full of shit
5. Down
6. Anxious
7. Bold
8. Dumb
9. Broke
10. Jealous
11. Determine
12. Active
13. Extrovert
14. Want it all
15. Gullible
16. Rebellious
17. Stupid
18. Etc....

All of it was the past. we grow up. On our own roads lead to the next phase for a better life.

Adios.

2022

Rough journey from the previous. the is up and down from the start. Life is a journey, an endless journey through thin ad thick. 2021 start with bad start but end with a bang. Cherish this moment. it wont last forever.

The post Covid world not yet established. The world leader hungry for wealth and power. Thou dont live in our shoes. No Emphathy but all words are full of s***. People are suffering yet the riches became more wealthier than ever. maybe a rant but take this a reminder, "We are not in this world forever".

Decade ago, so young and naive. thinking that world would threat you better if you did better. In fact, the world is cruel truth which there is ending dog eating dog situation. Even the karmatic revelation is not enough to cleanse all of this unfair.

came 2022. the new age of technology (even some people not very smart at it).

Lets pray for 2022 for a year for all of us. We need it. 

Thank You.

Myth: Manual & Automatic

Since the creating of automobile, the technology has evolved through the century. From simple mechanically machine to advanced sophisticated technology. Through the century, automobile have been using manual and automatic transmission. In recent time the manual cars have reach to extinctions zone which over 90% of the new car produce where fully automatic (AMT, Torque Converter AT, CVT, DCT/DSG and etc.) leaving the lower percentage for surviving manual vehicles. The progress of mankind lead to more comfortable ride which offer most on the automatic vehicles. By the end of decade, it is predicted the manual transmission would cease to exist in addition of the EV development. Although the Car Enthusiast are very optimist the number would not go down in near future.

    Are manual cars being relics from the past when technology breakthrough has not been discovered? It is a no and yes answer depending who we ask. Some car euthanistic and purist claim that driving manual cars having the only experiences that cannot be found while driving an automatic car. When we driving and manual car, the experience of the shifting gears, rev matching and the adrenalin rush are intense than driving automatic car. In contrast, automatic car giving the best comfort for all driving condition especially on heavy traffic.

    But, does driving manual car in the traffic would kill down your left foot for long time? To answer this, we need to understand the basic understanding of the manual car itself. Different from automatic car, manual car having three pedals to operate. When turning the ignition on, the gear level would set to neutral before engaging a gear. By pressing the clutch, enter the gear level to the 1^st gear and release the clutch carefully to avoid the engine stall (Shocked cause by immediately release of clutch to make engine stop). Another tip is to blip some accelerator when release the clutch after ready the clutch bite to avoid engine stalling every time. After that, continue to press the accelerator until reached 20-40 kmph (2300-4000rpm) then press the clutch, disengaged the gear and engaged to 2^nd gear and finally release the clutch carefully and press the accelerator. Repeat this step for engaged to 3^rd, 4^th, 5^th or 6^th and above. Done in sequentially order. For downshifting, it is advisable to rev matching before engage the lower gear. A good rev matching would guarantee none jerky movement of sudden downshift. First step to downshift is to decelerated by stepping the brake or the gravity action. When the car decelerated, press the clutch and disengaged the gear and engaged the lower gear (for example 5^th to 4^th) but blip the throttle before full release the clutch. Another method by using heel and toe technique, press the brake using right leg, and the repeat the regular downshifting but the right leg stay in the brake while blipping the throttle with the other part of right leg (this technique required a lot of practice, Even I took about months to familiarize this technique.)

    Consequently, the using of clutch for manual car only need when upshifting and downshifting. The left foot is barely touch and the right foot doing 83% of driving when using manual car. Some people suffer pain of left foot because inaccurate way to driving a manual car by holding the clutch on heavy traffic (which could cause the tear and wear on the clutch disk). The holding clutch practice is use when the car needs extra traction when moving uphill, but as soon as the car catch up with the speed, the left leg finished it job and drive as usual. In other side, driving automatic simplify the works for shifting and let the car travelled from point A to B.

    In Conclusion, by changing the driving habit on manual car. We can save our left foot from unnecessary fatigue and money from tear and wear on the transmission. This is just a free thought and some factual notice.

Bite the Feeding Hand

 

In the dark of the night, Nathan stare out the windows through the pouring rain. He starts wondering how he could chance everything after all have done. Back in the days, Nathan was just an unemployed from any type jobs. Living with his family and seven siblings. Each day, Nathan would always be fighting his family. He is the person who believe he was never in fault for any reason. Kind of narcissist person who he was.

            On the fateful day, he was looking for job and he manage to secured a job as a botanist. Nathan couldn’t careless for his job. He works just for the sake proving his families that he was right. On the other side, Nathan still fighting with his relative for he reluctant to admit he was in fault. The fighting was intense, with broken glass and bruises head and body. Couple years past, the Headquarters of his Company hold a recruitment on several posting as Security Guard. Since the posting was placed different area from where he lives, He try to apply the position and secure his position. Although, it would take several months to verify his posting at the new place. Three months later, he finally transfers to new posting location. The news gave big smile on his face which he does not need to deal with his family again.

            On the headquarters, Nathan was happy with his but he could find place to stay. He meets the top official of his company to pledge for place to crash. The Director, Mr. John arranged he to meet the head of maintenance for such inquiry. He then met Felix as arrange by the Director and came up with plan with building additional hut around the worker premise for Nathan place to stay for a time being. Nathan thanks to Felix for helping him. Several weeks later, the hut was finished and Nathan now has place to stay.

It was July when he meets his future wife, a widow, Janet who recently divorced with her former husband. Janet was very manipulated women and she tries to convince her former husband to do what she said. But that love just don’t work out. It ends with bitter divorced. Nathan instantaneously fall in love with her. Nathan and Janet getting married after 6 months of dating. Janet then live together with Nathan in his place. With Nathan job as security guard, Janet feel at ease with nobody would harm them.

Day by day, Nathan grew more furious and ranting unnecessary to his company. He became more aggressive and love to spread hearsay. Felix live across the bigger house at the worker premise. It was a time for him retire and his son Vincent would work with same company and continue to live in the house. Nathan became envy and came out with a plan to evicted Felix’s son from that house. At the same time, the head of security Jack always jealous with Felix achievement and prosperity. Jack had very high tempered and even try to persuade the director to Evicted Felix after He retire. However, the director ignores that nonsense and focused more on the worker welfare.

 It was a dark day; the director has passed away from sudden heart attack. The company was force to appoint new Director, Fred who was friends of Jack. Jack was enlightened and start his secret plan silently. It almost two left for Felix to retire and he take his last vacations before retire. In silent, Jack remove Felix parking spot name and replaced it with him and deliberately tell the top official to evict Felix family from his house but halt by the top official which Felix’s son also working in the company and there is no necessary action to evicted exist worker from the house. Jack angered and frustrated, Nathan overhear the conversation and fill with thought of snatching the house and live in prosperity. Nathan came to Janet and she was excited and plan a great plan on their palm.

Months later, Nathan meet Jack to construct plan that would works. They complaint to the new official that the hut Nathan live in ruin and need further reconstruction and convinced that only security guard have privilege of living in the workers premise. The new naïve Administration Officer compelled by them and draft memo for immediate evicted at Felix house where Vincent live now. Vincent was forced to leave the house and Nathan and Janet spread hearsay about Vincent does not want to leave the house. Vincent frustrated and left the house forever and start to find another home. God speed Vincent. Jack and Nathan did it. They celebrated like a feast and plan to evicted another non-security tenant from worker premise. One by one, the chase out all the other tenant and completely turn the place into security guard premise.

Nathan live in comfort but is came to the end when suddenly Vincent was appointed as the new Vice Director of the company. Nathan couldn’t show his face to his company. He has no authority against Vincent. In other side, since Vincent been chased out, he finds abundant of help from the other worker from the company. They help him finding new home and he thanks them gratefully. He doesn’t strike back to those who was frame and persecuted him. Although, Vincent never treat the worker unfairly and win the heart of people.

On the cool night, Nathan suddenly fell down on the stair and his head hit the grounds. Janet find his husband laying and rush to the hospital. The doctor came out from the result and tell him that he couldn’t walk normal as some of his nerve had been damage through the fall. To make things worse, the doctor discover that he was diagnosed cancer. The doctor told him he can no longer work with heavy task type of work. To Nathan, that would make he would soon would be evicted from the house. Due to their action in the past, non-security personnel are not to live in the worker premise and since Vincent was the Vice Director, Nathan thought Vincent will use this chance to get revenged on him.

After a long stay at the hospital, he and family packed up things and back to the house. The next days, Nathan meets with Vincent and as expected Nathan was evicted from the premise not because of Vincent, but their doing in the past. Vincent was trying to convinced the top official board but they ignore Vincent pledge for Nathan's stay and doesn’t even bother to hear. The aftermath, Vincent find rent house for Nathan and families. Nathan doesn’t hear since from them because he was no longer work at his company.

Nathan sit at the side of the windows in the dark night, cool and rainy. Reminiscing the old day and grow older alone. He lost his job, family and even freedom. Little did he knows, he now old sitting on the old folk home left alone and waiting to died.

 

The End

Gullible and Naive

Shalom and Have a Good Day.

Source: https://www.difference.wiki/naive-vs-gullible/

On today world, people need to survive on the harsh reality of the world. The good things are not always came in front of us, and we cannot trust anybody on this modern Era.

People in past often being in the shoes of naivety and gullibility for so long. Being close with devotions and what do they believe. The world has evolve to a point where these traits can destroy ourselves from the inside.

Naivety with positive aura cannot save us from the people try to manipulate us. Its sometimes related with the experience gain with us and what type of people we have met. After the naivety broke like a shatter glass, the news person would come out from the shell and live as negatively pessimist person.

Different with gullibility, it always can be seen for the people who have natural traits that cannot be changes or modified. Even though the person who learn from lesson from past lie. There always think things can change with the time and fall for it over and over again.

In this harsh time for people, the circle of deceiving would continue and continue to the future. Life goes on but live with less naivety and gullibility.

p/s Take care readers.

A New Tomorrow

"33. Set your hearts on his kingdom first, and on God's saving justice, and all these other things will be given you as well. 34. So do not worry about tomorrow: tomorrow will take care of itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
Matthew, 6:33-34 - Bíblia Católica Online

Enough say, after 4 years not into blogging, this is sharing for anyone who love to read (Obviously). But before that, Shalom and Greetings to the viewers (readers).

What happened in past stay in the past, but that doesn't tell us to forget who we used be. Maybe in the past, we done a big mistake, but that doesn't tell us that we are forever lost and kind of bummer. In life, the will be many or plenty of turning point that would decide our fate and future. Like a butterflies effect, every tiny things can cause a drastic changes in our life for the longest run.

 

"So life doesn't hurt, doesn't hurt so badly
So life doesn't hurt, doesn't hurt so badly
Please don't look at life, look at me so sadly
Life shouldn't hurt, doesn't hurt so badly"

Angels And Airwaves-The Flight Of Apollo

Life move on. What Happened today, stay today. We living in the present and some kind of paradox for living for tomorrow. JK.

Well, Life does change for 4 years since I was an University Student to a Working Adult. Things changes but we still the same. I goes that all came by. Becoming a boring man for a past few years.

And for all of that, bubye from me and........ maybe will be another years or so on for mumbling over here.

p/s those photo and picture aren't mine. I just use it for decorations purpose. adieu~.

p/s p/s new type of blog are coming. JK

Orion Constellation at UTP

How Time Changes Everything

Basically this was a facebook share game around 2010-2011... some much cahnges over the times... This just an updated version... not for challenge anyone or what.. just given the comparison what was happened in those timeline. :) As the bold words refer as the present.

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. last beverage = char siew pau (coincdence in this morning,  bought sasau pau after MS exam while in UTP i'd bought Nasi goreng aym kunyit and mineral water)
2. last phone call = Ruth (Bridget)
3. last text message = Nevall (also Bridget, btw nowadays people prefer whatsapps)
4. last song you listened to = Open the eyes of my hearts  (before fall asleep) (When I'm with you - Simple Plan)
5. last time you cried = hmm... 10 years ago? (earlier this months?)

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. dated someone twice = never (hmm... just once)
7. been cheated on = always (Probably)
8. kissed someone & regretted it = never (actually not i kissed someone, it just someone who just a friends suddenly kissed me.. I'm not Gay)
9. lost someone special = yes, cousin die from cancer (Grandpa passed away 2 years ago)
10. been depressed = only if failed on sometihng. (as final year student... Most of the time)
11. been drunk and threw up = drunk, not always... hehehe... threw up... hmmm.. like never (normal to be drunk and threw up... just threw up at toilet.. also a hangover after drink too much)

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. Hot Pink - yeah!!! Mark Hoppus Bass colour. (Yeah, blue seems nice)
13. White (Still black and white still on the list)
14. Black (How about purple and orange? Because of Miaw2)

LAST YEAR (2010), HAVE YOU: (refer to the year 2013)

15. Made a new friend = hmmm... yes... beacuse entering uni.. (Big time... meet new junior... new people at internship)
16. Fallen out of love = just little crush and after few while just did like never happan... (Big time.. maybe I'd settle down already)
17. Laughed until you cried = last year... no... (When I was driving with gf)
18. Met someone who changed you = no.. i'm stll myself (Literally not changing much, just less naive and matured)
19. Found out who your true friends were = no.. they all the same (Yes, they only fews of them)
20. Found out someone was talking about you = maybe, just ignore them (Yes, but I dont hear from them what they talking about)
21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend's list = no.. this is nuisance... (To be honest.. Yes)

GENERAL:

22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life = maybe 90% of them... hehe (About 91%.. yeah.. I only accepted friends request from somebody I know)
24. Do you have any pets = of course... especially miaw.. they cute and adorable (Yes, It was Jibonish, the most smatest Orange White Cat)
25. Do you want to change your name = to "Micheal".... haha (Nah, not a important things just might changes to Mark Advent)
26. What did you do for your last birthday = went to score 'A' programme? what actually I do they? (Repair my computer - skipping work)
27. What time did you wake up today = 1.03 p.m (actualy was 6.30 am but continue to sleep until 7.40 am)
28. What were you doing at midnight last night = on my laptop... as usual (Studying Malaysian Studies - Exam!!!)
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = Jesus.. or my other side.. (Still the same)
30. Last time you saw your Mother = 19th May at Negeri Sembilan... for Muzium Day... (When sent them to the airport (KKIA))
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life =  Only one day... 26 Feb 2003... change the day... (Maybe earlier 2010 which I can still go out from UTP and find another better career but with present memories)
32. What are you listening to right now = Blink 182 forever... (The sound of the wind)
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? = if you mention Tom Delonge.... I fan of him... hehehe... in real life... never talk to person name Tom (Tom... hmm... uptill now, I'd just meet one person name Tom but not close and also not a friend)
34. What's getting on your nerves right now = nothing.. (finishing God damn UTP life)
35. Most visited webpage = blogger? facebook? google? youtube? (New trends: Fb, twitter, google, sps, youtube and anything pop out from google)
37. Nickname = Mark/Venture (still the same)
38. Relationship Status = single since 2007 (Oh God, been relationship since 2012... Damn so long the single life)
39. Zodiac sign = Scorpio.... yeah... Kamen Rider Sasword... (Fun fact: Of course this would not change)
40. Male or Female = Of course Male.. (Kidding me for a transexual... lol... of course still a male)
41. Elementary = Shan Tao/Sacred Heart (Same)
42. High School = La Salle/MRSM (Same also)
43. College = UTP? (yeah.. its UTP with the irony of lack of technology)
44. Hair color = natural black... i'm a good boy.. (Black.. but wanna dye it.. hahaha)
45. Long or short = for men views... it's long.. (Oh God, it this sign of getting older.. I just maintain my hair-cut short)
 46. Height = 164 (It was 161... typo)
47. Do you have a crush on someone = maybe... and it's secret (yeah... Big time)
48. What do you like about yourself? = I am great musician? (I'm awesome... a multi talented musician and photography)
50. Tattoos = hmm, no... (Maybe.. but my cousin say dont)
51. Righty or lefty = Right.. (Right and always right but damn my hand easily tired writing)

FIRSTS :

52. First surgery = three days after 26 Feb 2003... (No further surgery)
53. First piercing = never... (Maybe not also in the future)
54. First best friend = it's secret... (Oh.. come on... its was Weltson)
55. First sport you joined = badminton (yup... that it is)
56. First vacation = hmm... Labuan... when I was a kid... (yup.. no change)
 57. First pair of trainers = never... (actually, i dont understand what they means by trainers)

RIGHT NOW:

59. Eating = air (None...)
60. Drinking/Swallowing = air also (Water)
61. I'm about to = close this tab (Post to blogger)
62. Listening to = family outing background sound.. (The sound of the fan)
63. Waiting to = 17 September... (finished exam and final moment as student)

YOUR FUTURE :

64. Want kids? = maybe... around 10... (to be realistist, should be 5-7 kids... because money)
65. Get Married? = if someone it suitable suddebly fall from heaven... hehe (sure... why not.. that the point of living)
66. Career? = Studio Manager... (Maybe as Environmental Officer or Engineer or maybe freelancer photographer)

WHICH IS BETTER(FUTURE PARTNER) :

67. Lips or eyes = Lips.. (Mulut 3... hahaha...)
68. Hugs or kisses= Kisses... hehe (Both are okay... the problem is the future partner like to hug and kiss)
69. Shorter or taller = shorter (of course shorter... It the man pride to be taller)
70. Older or Younger = younger (not neccesarry)
71. Romantic or spontaneous = spontaneous (Still Spontaneous)
72. Nice stomach or nice arms = don'y know... this is ridicilous (hmm... doesnt matter)
73. Sensitive or loud = woman both sensitive and loud... why must choose...? they 2 in 1... (Yup... they are)
74. Hook-up or relationship = relationship.... (Settle down relationship)
75. Trouble maker or hesitant = hmm... both not my choice... or silence.. (Well... it was trouble maker)

HAVE YOU EVER :

76. Kissed a stranger = No. if t'kiss... it's a rezeki... hehe (Oh yeah... free kisses.. expecting much... but never if stranger)
77. Drank hard liquor = yes... it's good for your health... (Well... I am Kadazan-Dusun.. that my culture)
78. Lost glasses/contacts = once... they lense are suddenly fell.. hehe (yup.. once)
79. Sex on first date = hmm... no... that's not good... wait until marry... hehe (what happened on first date, stay in the first date)
80. Broke someone's heart = hmm... never... I take care people heart... (No... people broke my heart)
81. Had your own heart broken = that's natural.... no need to ask... (Yup.. but what to do lah..)
82. Been arrested = for break in the computer lab when I was Form 2... hehe (Yeah... only that time)
83. Turned someone down = maybe no... don't know they down of up... haha (To be honest... yes... but I dont realise it until people tell me)
84. Cried when someone died = no... just feel somethings lost from my part... (Yes.. for the Love of God... I was crying when taking photo in my gradpa funeral)
85. Fallen for a friend = friends? never... (Yeah... its not never...)

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself = yes... only 99.99% (50% 50% due to the lack of confdence in Final year)
87. Miracles = yes... it always occur... (Thanks God for Miracles)
88. Love at first sight = need 10 times sight or more... hehe (Actually yes... but God had different plan)
89. Heaven = yes... already been they... (Truly believe it.. now and forever)
90. Santa Claus = he is a saint... then I believe him... (He was one of the Saint)
91. Kiss on the first date = Never had first date... (what happened on first date, stay in the first date)
92. Angels = yes... (Yes... I do)

P/S As we can see that people can changes from time to time...

CSS-UTP/IPG-Penang Basic Camp Promotional video

Shalom, 

CSS-UTP will have camp event on 25th to 27th of July 2014, t bad cannot join. At least enjoy the promotional made by me. My contributions to CSS-UTP for the camp since I cannot join the camp.

For the RAW version:

The Crew for the video:

1) Edward
2) Boss Clement
3) Jordan
4) Aki Joshua
5) Chrishare
6) Me

P/S: God Bless to those who join the camp.

Gaim no Kaze ~ Just Live More (Kamen Rider Opening Theme)

Japanese Version.

Got it, move… wow…

Don’t say no, just live more!
Don’t say no, just live more!

Survival, you got move
Gendai wa sanagara sengoku
Dare ga kachinukeru
Kagi wa akerareteshimatta

(Don’t say no, just live more)
Doko ni aru?
(Don’t say no, just live more)
Dou tsukau?
Kindan no kajitsu

“Ima” to iu kaze wa nani wo tsutaeru tame
(Omae no moto ni fuku?
Tsuyoku tsuyoku blowin’ up)
Ashita ga yume ga mada mienakutemo
(Soko genkai? Seiippai
Ikiteiru to ieru nara)

Utsumuku na yo
(Kao wo agero)
Dokomade demo
(Mageru koto naku)
Shinjita michi wo yuke just live more!

(Don’t say no, just live more!)
Don’t say no, just live more!
Don’t say no, just live more!

Hanamichi philosophy
Katanakya sugu ni gakepucchi
Tatakai wa never end
Saigo no hitori ni naru made

(Don’t say no, just live more!)
Minu furi ka?
(Don’t say no, just live more!)
Mogitoru ka?
Kindan no kajitsu

“Ima” to iu sora wa nani wo miseru tame ni
(Makka ni moeteiru?
Atsuku atsuku burnin’ sun)
Tsuyosa de nani wo shoumei suru no ka?
(Omae dake ni kiiterunda
Kowasu no ka mamoru no ka?)

Ashiato sae
(Dare mo inai)
Mienakutemo
(Sekai no hate)
Shinjita michi wo yuke just live more!

Kono arasoi wo owari ni dekiru dareka wa
Tenka musou no shousha
Tomanna bibinna
Omotta sono mama you’re on the right track
Just, just, just live more!

“Ima” to iu kaze wa nani wo tsutaeru tame
(Omae no moto ni fuku?
Tsuyoku tsuyoku blowin’ up)
Ashita ga yume ga mada mienakutemo
(Soko genkai? Seiippai
Ikiteiru to ieru nara)

“Ima” to iu sora wa nani wo miseru tame ni
(Makka ni moeteiru?
Atsuku atsuku burnin’ sun)
Tsuyosa de nani wo shoumei suru no ka?
(Omae dake ni kiiterunda
Kowasu no ka mamoru no ka?)

Utsumuku na yo
(Kao wo agero)
Dokomade demo
(Mageru koto naku)
Shinjita michi wo yuke Just Live More!

Don’t say no, just live more!
Don’t say no, just live more!

English Translation:

Got it, move… wow…

Don’t say no, just live more!
Don’t say no, just live more!

It’s survival, you gotta move
When life’s in a warring state
Who’s got the strength to win
Now that all the locks are open?

(Don’t say no, just live more)
Where will you find…
(Don’t say no, just live more)
And how will you use
The forbidden fruit?

The wind of the moment has its own message to share
(It’s blowin’ stronger and stronger
‘Till it reaches you)
Your dreams and future may seem so far away…
(When you’ve got all you can out of life,
That’s when you can stop)

But don’t let life get you down
(Keep your head held high)
Wherever you may go
(Never compromise yourself)
Follow the path you believe in, and just live more!

(Don’t say no, just live more!)
Don’t say no, just live more!
Don’t say no, just live more!

Live like you’re always taking the stage
You gotta keep winning or get pushed to the edge
The war will never end
Until only one remains standing

(Don’t say no, just live more!)
Will you spurn…
(Don’t say no, just live more!)
Or will you pluck…
The forbidden fruit?

The sky of the moment has its own view to see
(The sun’s burnin’ red,
Getting hotter and hotter)
What will you use your strength to prove?
(Only you can answer the question,
Will you destroy or protect?)

When there are no trails
(Where no one’s been before)
For you to follow
(At the end of the world)
Follow the path you believe in, and just live more!

The one who can bring an end to this conflict
Must stand victorious above the rest
Don’t stop, don’t flinch
Follow your instincts, you’re on the right track
Just, just, just live more!

The wind of the moment has its own message to share
(It’s blowin’ stronger and stronger
‘Till it reaches you)
Your dreams and future may seem so far away…
(When you’ve got all you can out of life,
That’s when you can stop)

The sky of the moment has its own view to see
(The sun’s burnin’ red,
Getting hotter and hotter)
What will you use your strength to prove?
(Only you can answer the question,
Will you destroy or protect?)

But don’t let life get you down
(Keep your head held high)
Wherever you may go
(Never compromise yourself)
Follow the path you believe in, and just live more!

Don’t say no, just live more!

Don’t say no, just live more!

source: Aesir ~ Just Live More Lyrics

Zangetsu Logo

Flora in fences

Taken at Kg. Tinompok

Reviving

1 year and 1 month... hmm... this blog doesnt active for so long... well... it time for the revival of the blog... :) 

for the past year, I've been stop writing in this blog.. :) dont knw why I stop writing at that time..

this blog would undergoes some modification from time to time including:
1) colour of the blog
(include background and font)
2) the widget location
3) the font change
4) blog name??
(the blog name seems unrelevant)
5) the url
(to much arrogant for an url)

The blog might change the delivery of the message... maybe become a photo blog.?? Whos know....

I am a photographer after all and musician..

Well... out of blues maybe I share on experiences.. mostly greaat adventure...... :O

That all folks.. signing out for not.. :v

Then and Now..

Shalom and greetings to all reader... :) just a simple update being thought for years passed... maybe... :) well... this is just some photo that I used to be and the present... :)

2007 - After PMR programs (MIGTY)

2008 - Minggu Aktiviti (Dewan Mengaris)

2009 - Before Formal Dinner

2010 - Having fun at Pangkor

2011 - CSS trip to Malacca

2012 - Choir Trip at Penang

2013 - Eating Oreo at Futsal court

So that was changes of physical look for over 6 years until now... :) well... I'm getting fatter.. and thats true... :)

Thats all from me... enjoy your Sunday..

p/s Happy father's day to all fathers and also who will became father... :)

GMB - Kuterpaku

Dalam rembulan
Dalam cahya mentari
Digelap badai
Dan indahnya pelangi

Dalam tangisan
Dan wajah berseri
Kan kutemukan
Kasih terbesar bagi dunia ini

Diam kuterpaku
Dan kutakjub akan kasihMu
Yang tergores indah
Dalam anugerah
Hatiku milikMu
Indah kuterkagum
Dan kubawakan hidupku
Kau membuat hatiku
Menjadi baru
Bahagia kumengenalMu

Bridge:
Kuterpaku… melihatMu
Kuterkagum… memandangMu

Paradox Dream

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Shalom... Well, something about this topic for today... just a simple dream for today... got some paradoxeption in this entry.. hahaha... dont know how start... i just make it simple as i can... hihihi.... i'm afraid of being talk to much crap for this... hahaha...

lets get start... maybe my definition of paradox dream different from another views... this is just based on experience and what I understand about it.. okay.. shall we proceed..

Talking about dream, of course everybody know it.. no need explain much on it... happened everytime or seldom while we sleeping.... even animals also dreaming while sleeping... We know that our dreams could be happy dream, fantasy dream, nightmare, weird as shit dream that doesn't make sense at all and many more dream that we can imagine... and very special one call lucid dream.. wow... you like a God in your own dream when having this dream... the one ability to control own dream direction and having conscience of realizing t was a dream....

The idea is the paradox dream also a very weird dream... not an inception dream that explain the dream inside dream inside dream and inside dream depend how many phase of dream you... well, watch "Inception" movie starts by Leonardo DiCarpio for basc understandng of inception... hahahaha... back to point, Paradox Dream according to me is, the character of the dream is you most of the time, but play in different time... sort like time-travel kind of dream where the dream version of you meet another dream version of you... cool right, but in some views, you as yourself in dream play different role in different part of dream... 

hahahaha... so much confusion from what I tell just now... :3 okay.. let me tell me story of "Paradox Dream" from me... enjoy... ^_^

the story start when I was a time traveler and sent to past to get red of bad.. that the mission of the dream.. i guess... but then, in my journey chasing the bad guy, I accidentally meet this fully robe guy that he trying to approach me and stop what I'm doing... and the guy was followed me whenever and wherever I go... I go stress with to guy and I smoke... and then he stopped me and said "Don't smoke, or u will face bigger problem" ... What a weird guy and then I feel very annoying about this guy and try as much I can escape from him... few... very glad because escaping from him.. I continue my mission find the villain of the dream but then suddenly, I get to the temple and everything became more religious dream and the villain is not longer remember. its a new whole story for a sudden... typical weird dream... then.. in the dream I've being healing and undergoes some sort of exorcism by a Priest... feel like real and how its feel something came out from my body... wow... feel so hurt also then for a moment I've been throw to the sky and smash to ground because 1 things I do... and that things was I smoke in the earlier dream... Then, the priest u forget that u had smoke before and that why I've been throw up to sky and falling down again... then after a second, I've in were a robe and back to the where in earlier dream... I saw one person was chasing a bad guy and I've remember it was me and then trying approach him and follow him.. he seems pissed to me and until I saw he starts to smoke and said "Don't smoke, or u will face bigger problem" ... he very pissed off because I'd try to stop whatever he does and just for a second he then run away and I cannot find his trace anymore... and I woke up... 

this is a short dream because I just sleep for 2 hours.. not expecting too much because need study for finals that time... >.<

that's all from for now... :3 hahahaha... sorry for the boring story for you all... :) Okay... thats all from me and I wish goodluck for life everybody... God Bless You all... 

p/s also consider as weird as shit dream that doesn't make sense at all dream

GMB - The Best Is Yet To Come

Lihatlah bintang di semesta
Bintang yang bersinar bagi kita
Waktu yang telah diberikan
Sangatlah berharga janganlah siakan 

S'bab Kau-lah yang kudamba
Dan Kaulah s'galanya

Now I run
And set my eyes on You
I lay my life at Your feet
My heart and my plans
And my future's in Your hands
Now my soul 
Rests like the stars above
For I know that the best is yet to come

p/s the best is yet to come

Why I don't do sharing anymore?

shalom everybody. it's been long time I haven't post any entries.. well, busy schedule and have several mental  depression. well, that okay.. :) I'm fine and better. Well its about 5 years I've been not giving any sharing for another brother and sister in Christ. When I was in the high school, I starting to give sharing to another people after my turning point dream. Form 2 which the phase of changing point of my faith.. day after day, i began to realize that God always by my side and True!! Well, continue to opened my eyes, I've began to develop my mature side and cover by my immature side through my behavior, a very childish and cannot be trust from outside while inside screaming for attention and trust. At that time, senior still conducted the gathering or fellowship for the all the Christian's friends. Well, they used to be combine fellowship for all domination of Christian but then its only last for 2 or 3 weeks when the fellowship were banned by the school authority and that don't stop the gathering at all. Well, gathering continue as time passed by. Entering form 3, our batch were taking control over the gathering when someone suddenly because too Holy by human eyes. But it don't last as he choose another path which to cover his guiltiness over the other believer for make an extreme changes on gathering. Later than in the reformation of the gathering, I join with several girl friends to make the things alive. Being part of them, I began to give sharing frequently and by the way I've been giving sharing also in form 2. Enjoy to give sharing, the things I've afraid is mislead them and make the stray from they faith. I been giving sharing from form 3 until my end of life in the high school. I getting to know many people from giving sharing and that what fill over my life in high school. Although, I might be controlled by pride and jealousy at that time. This was my life as Christian in MRSM KK.

after end my high school life, I've enter university, UTP. we been approach by the CSS at the end of the orientation. enter uni make my life fall down to the lowest people which, I've became just ordinary man with no pride and full of humbleness. I've been sacrificing many things to other people. I'm not longer give sharing but still giving my all time sharing about my dream. I'd remember about the lent when I'm sharing about  glass of coffee. I've been lower myself and let everybody wins on any argument. People don't respect me, don't trust and that make me more lower myself. I can no longer trust myself either. I'm alone and lack of attention. Just the time I'd tried to make myself confident by travelling to another campus for PCC but then being back stabbing by own CSS's President at that time. 2012 its was the most suffer years of all time. previous years, I'm happy being elected as PCC representative from UTP from previous excos and president. After the President re-announce the board, I've feel like a light saber strikes from behind. He even does tell me that I'm not longer a PCC representative and act me just I can accept that kind of shock. The previous PCC very shock with that decision. I began to ignore my presence from them. I've being depressed, sad and angry. Well, no one trust me at that time. I've been out of mind, cannot express out my feeling. And God's will, He sent someone who keep me sane till this time. And right now, I can finally walk on my path straight. And still, I'm stop sharing to take care of all people hearts. They are brother and sister in Christ.

I guess this just a surface about what i'm saying.. By the way, thanks for read. :)

p/s God bless you all!!!

Entering Jan 13

while entering this new year.. the lots of challenge face to face new chapter of life... every person on the earth  had on story of the own... different path, different family, and different belief... Enter the new year left all the chapter before behind and make a new chapter of life... 

LETS THE JOURNEY START:

To understand the entering of 2013.. lets hear story the from the previous month (December 2012) as important as the continuation the legacy of 2013... My December just an ordinary December as usual year before... nothing special.. spending time alone at home while the other younger siblings and mother went back to my mother's hometown (Kg. Tinompok, Tambunan), my father went to KL for his thyroid therapy at KL hospital and my big bro still in Cheras for his study... left me alone with the cats and dogs... but I'm not afraid at all... because my cats were my best friends at home... after i gone from home... they will search for my presence as they also a creature create by God.. my cats were missing me and solemnly without my presence... even they came back home after I calling they're name... well... i being alone with cat but luckily I've been invited by my high school friends to celebrate Christmas with them... i with open heart accepted they invitation and its was 18/12/12 i  guess at located at One Borneo Hyper mall ball room.. even though no enough food over they... but the Christmas spirit can be feel that time... and later on, I became my friend's driver because they want to back to their hostel earlier (UMS).. first time entering UMS was enough to describe a "SAKAI" guy like my.... and after that I being alone again until I fetch my cousin from KKIA and directly went to Tambunan for 4 day (20-24) because needs to fetch up again my big bro and dad from KKIA also.. they funny things is my cousin should fetch them but at the end I fetch them and made it on time and still have time to eat McDonald... arrived at home... I thought we will be back to Tambunan at that night I fetch them and I left all my belongings for Christmas at they... having some argument with dad and finally me and my cousin back to Tambunan the Christmas Morning... No wonderful Christmas for me.. being alone for almost 20 years at Christmas Eve but only a flying message throughout the world be my friends... later on Tambunan, I've managed to arrived at my mom's hometown and get ready for the Christmas's Mass (Holy Cross Toboh)... luckily me and my cousin bring back my bro car to Tambunan and I use that car get to they church earlier and park beside my other cousin car... what a coincidence... hmm... nothing special happened.. just having Christmas Mass and then back to rest and have to deal with every years "merajuk" birthday girl... to be honest I hate this my youngest sister for always being like that for almost every year in 12 years.. well.. having party and visit the late grand-father and cousin grave... being the tradition for the family to pay visit for them so they will happy in heaven because being remember... the Christmas season is end with the coming of my aunt wedding and it was my last aunt from my mother's siblings getting married... we having preparation for her wedding at "balai raya" and decorate everything that necessary... reach the wedding day.. shit happened... on the way me and cousin going to bought the wine for toast.. the car starting to shows the impact of "shocked" means the car never go far from KK and use to go Tambunan and the car unable to start... its kill some times and causing me not attending the wedding ceremony at Church... but happened another things which helping my uncle to bought many bundle of ices for "beer" only... the wedding  not quiet "meriah" because mostly people came and go home... at least they were food being prepare and eating mostly my job over they but should be the people were distribute the beer to the people coming... end of story... now is the waiting to back to KK but instead directly back to Papar and shit happened again when we already at Putatan and turning on the air-cond causing the car to stop its engine with any warning.... but safely arrived at Papar... (30/12/1).. approach new year.. we having some barbeque out-side the house and in the ending of the years... and thats how its entering the jan 2013...

p/s its just story of lonely guy.