Why I don't do sharing anymore?

shalom everybody. it's been long time I haven't post any entries.. well, busy schedule and have several mental  depression. well, that okay.. :) I'm fine and better. Well its about 5 years I've been not giving any sharing for another brother and sister in Christ. When I was in the high school, I starting to give sharing to another people after my turning point dream. Form 2 which the phase of changing point of my faith.. day after day, i began to realize that God always by my side and True!! Well, continue to opened my eyes, I've began to develop my mature side and cover by my immature side through my behavior, a very childish and cannot be trust from outside while inside screaming for attention and trust. At that time, senior still conducted the gathering or fellowship for the all the Christian's friends. Well, they used to be combine fellowship for all domination of Christian but then its only last for 2 or 3 weeks when the fellowship were banned by the school authority and that don't stop the gathering at all. Well, gathering continue as time passed by. Entering form 3, our batch were taking control over the gathering when someone suddenly because too Holy by human eyes. But it don't last as he choose another path which to cover his guiltiness over the other believer for make an extreme changes on gathering. Later than in the reformation of the gathering, I join with several girl friends to make the things alive. Being part of them, I began to give sharing frequently and by the way I've been giving sharing also in form 2. Enjoy to give sharing, the things I've afraid is mislead them and make the stray from they faith. I been giving sharing from form 3 until my end of life in the high school. I getting to know many people from giving sharing and that what fill over my life in high school. Although, I might be controlled by pride and jealousy at that time. This was my life as Christian in MRSM KK.

after end my high school life, I've enter university, UTP. we been approach by the CSS at the end of the orientation. enter uni make my life fall down to the lowest people which, I've became just ordinary man with no pride and full of humbleness. I've been sacrificing many things to other people. I'm not longer give sharing but still giving my all time sharing about my dream. I'd remember about the lent when I'm sharing about  glass of coffee. I've been lower myself and let everybody wins on any argument. People don't respect me, don't trust and that make me more lower myself. I can no longer trust myself either. I'm alone and lack of attention. Just the time I'd tried to make myself confident by travelling to another campus for PCC but then being back stabbing by own CSS's President at that time. 2012 its was the most suffer years of all time. previous years, I'm happy being elected as PCC representative from UTP from previous excos and president. After the President re-announce the board, I've feel like a light saber strikes from behind. He even does tell me that I'm not longer a PCC representative and act me just I can accept that kind of shock. The previous PCC very shock with that decision. I began to ignore my presence from them. I've being depressed, sad and angry. Well, no one trust me at that time. I've been out of mind, cannot express out my feeling. And God's will, He sent someone who keep me sane till this time. And right now, I can finally walk on my path straight. And still, I'm stop sharing to take care of all people hearts. They are brother and sister in Christ.

I guess this just a surface about what i'm saying.. By the way, thanks for read. :)

p/s God bless you all!!!

day 29- In this past month, what have you learned and day 30- Your favorite song.

in the past few weeks.... I'm having no time to update my blog... because many things I did until I don't have the times to complete this challenge.... as to conclude this challenge.... I will share this two challenge in this entry...

here come the challenge.

Day 29...

what would I learned in the past month... this referring to August and September months.. here come something I found in past month....

• Anybody can be friends, but not a best friends.
• Procrastination only make yourself busier.
• Easiest way always come at desperate time.
• Never ever bring extra baggage when fly. Waste of time.
• Enjoy this Life.
• They are no turning back in Life.
• Satisfied with you decision.
• Everybody had annoying inside.
• Love is dangerous (even little crush).
• Hallucinate make yourself miss past moment.
• Have care with mother tongue.
• The World is small.
• Evolution occur anytime.
• No easy way to loss weight.
• And I happy the way I am.

Many things did happen in the past month... sometimes, you did ever know that you have learned something in this life.. to be honest... I happy when with everybody.

that's all...

Day 30...

This is the final challenge and I Hopefully everybody knows this song.. especially for blink 182 fans... are you ready... the songs I like the most on this time is....

"SNAKE CHARMER"

Thanks...

p/s after 3 weeks... I finally had time to conquer this challenge.

day 26- what you think about your friends

WHAT do I think of my FRIENDS??? Hmm... To be honest, here some THOUGHT of me about my FRIENDS...

1. They like to sharing they experiences...
2. They like to making fun anyone.
3. Like to MOGIMNUM. (Just Kidding)
4. They Kind. Not all the time.
5. They can be annoying.
6. They showing they pride.
7. They like Korean.
8. They update with newest songs.
9. They like to "Jalan2 Cari Makan".
10. Lasty, They make a Good friends for me.

p/s how about your's friends?

day 21- a picture of something that makes you happy

p/s that's all...

day 19- nicknames you have; why do you have them

shalom... today I just want reveal what my nick name and why they call me by the name...

• Bences/Ventures.

this nickname is often used by my families... start by my parents by calling me Ventures as my brother's name also Mark... like it or not.. it used to distinguish among me and brother..

• Mark.

besides families, I called by other people by 'Mark'... when first time called as Mark.. I feel uneasy as my family always call by my home's nicknames.. basically, almost everybody would call me by this name... and i'm used to it... and you can call me by this name...

• Henshin.

this names not always used... only when I'm meet another kamen rider fan..

• Belunting.

i hate this name... It always use by my cousin and siblings for teasing me...

• Markven

because of mistake in my name tag... they called me by this name... and later derived as 'Markvengz'...

• Kerbau/Bau

Because my body not too fat... but berisi... they try to find animal name that suitable for me...

I think that's all I remembered... maybe they are more... haha

p/s it's funny to recall it back...

Wednesday Without Words 7

day 03- a picture of you and your friends (everybody is friends)

Shalom... today I will show a picture of me and my friends.. 

here it goes:

sit (front) : Moshey, Nell
stand (middle) : Had, Me , Man Lee, Melissa@Bei, Aaron K.,Edgar, Tania, Janet, Anne
stand (behind) : Eric, Aaron S@Ansaw, Josh, Rick, HoHo, Clare


This picture taking at Church of Our Lady of Sorrows, Penang after the Sunday Mass. 


everybody in the world can be my friends, because anybody who ever know me and talk to me is consider as a friend.


p/s I be happy to be anyone friend.